I’m A Bit Behind…Again

While playing in sports, I would shut down when I felt behind. If I noticed someone my age or younger that had a much better skill set, knew more about the game, or had more experience, instead of feeling motivated to work harder, I felt like I lost my chance. In my mind, I could do just as much work, maybe even more, but I would still come up short because they had the head start. As I’m sure some of you have noticed, I’m behind on writing these devotions. I had been struggling to find a place that I could feel motivated to write this out while swimming in my to-do list. I felt awful every time a Monday would pass by, knowing I was letting myself down to the commitment I made but still would stare at a blank page, unable to muster a lesson I learned or Biblical application I needed. There is something to setting a plan and sticking to it, but there is also something to writing as the Holy Spirit leads, not out of necessity. I don’t think either is all wrong or all right. I do think I needed that time with the Lord to hear what He was speaking to me, before I spoke on it to others. It’s kind of like the log in someone’s eye as they speak on the splinter. I needed to identify my log. 

Self reflecting is a hard place to be. It’s uncomfortable. It’s demanding. It’s difficult to be honest and willing with yourself and your own actions and thoughts. I needed to set that time aside with myself, with the Lord. I needed to ask for council on the areas I struggled. I needed accountability for where I was trying to change and grow. I need to keep on seeking that truth in my life and the growth God has for me. I challenge you to set that time aside and let yourself be uncomfortable. Be in the dark place and prepare to grow.

Verses: 

“And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.”

‭‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭28‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

“For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭139‬:‭13‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

“For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.”

‭‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭18‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

“Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me, and know my anxieties; And see if there is any wicked way in me, And lead me in the way everlasting.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭139‬:‭23‬-‭24‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

“And why do you look at the speck in your brother’s eye, but do not consider the plank in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me remove the speck from your eye’; and look, a plank is in your own eye? Hypocrite! First remove the plank from your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.”

‭‭Matthew‬ ‭7‬:‭3‬-‭5‬ ‭NKJV‬‬